Hard to keep a smile while emotions run wild,
Feeling like a child cuz tears are usually their style,
Ppl judge me off my past yeah I've been in denial,
Act like you know the road I've followed when you haven't even walked a mile.
Swept all my shattered pieces into a pile and set them to flames,
Replacing everything I thought was real but just imitations in my brain,
Digging deep into my core to convince myself I deserve much more than just suffering and pain,
Something I must enforce before it becomes to late for me to be saved.
So eager for change trying to understand the virtue of patience,
I've sullied my own name by my actions during certain situations,
Seeing how far Ive came and how close I've come to total annihilation,
The destructive path I've paved the scars I engraved with my alterations,
Thought I was forever stuck in my ways until I swallowed my pride and shame and am working on being my own inspiration,
a grave I've dug for what's really too blame been working on its extermination.
Cutting ppl off quicker then they can say stop,
Refusing too take shots like I'm talking to the doc.
Cherish all the time that i got throw away everything that has been bought,
Cuz materialistics can be replaced but memories cannot.
Sometimes you gotta just pause and appreciate the now,
Cuz these sunny rays can quickly become dark clouds,
Listen when others speak instead of just hearing sound,
Promises you gotta keep or else trust will never be found.
Don't live life on your knees must keep yourself posted on solid ground,
Watch out for your own feet might stumble over yourself then go tumbling down.
Sometimes that's the beauty of it but also the opposite,
Falling isn't failing as long as you learn what the problem is,
And know what you are facing and find a way to conquer it,
Negativity is contagious just like covid so if you got it I don't want it.
I just wanna live life to the best of my ability,
I just wanna give back twice what everybody's did for me,
I just wanna have clear sight as I handle my responsibilities,
I just wanna love my kids and give them all I am and show them how happy we can be with the experiences we can experience and all the possibilities.
Gotta put in the work and be what I wanna be,
Learn from the hurt and keep building my dream,
Cuz if I never do anything then I'm just wasting my energy,
Success is the quest and failure is my enemy.
Time to set it free and unlock my potential,
Become the best of me as I deal with the trauma inside of my mental,
Taming my anxiety and cleansing my inner temple,
Switch out of park no more reverse only going forward with my foot forever on the pedal.