#TheUnrequitedLove
I know I was such a b**** in those days,
roaming the streets with that guy,
I was stuck in my ways,
telling you I loved you,
but that I couldn't stay;
I had to go my own way.
Five years straight,
I treated you like s***.
I knew that I couldn't quit,
but it wasn't your fault
I was stuck in that vault,
hitting licks, turning tricks,
I was quick on my feet,
but that wasn't enough
to keep from getting beat.
I finally found an escape
before it was too late.
I thought I found a perfect way
to change my fate.
I ran off with a perfect guy
who turned out to be a pedophile.
His brother was a junkie,
a liar, and a thief.
His kids were spoiled rotten,
and their mother was cheap.
The pedophile went to jail.
His brother stole from me.
I was so blind,
God finally opened my eyes.
I got down on my knees, then went,
and smoked my friend's weed.
God said to me, "It's your last chance for a while.
Tomorrow, you need to go the extra mile;
just stay clean for a while.
Turn to Me, and you'll see
a better life than anything
that you've ever seen!"
I'm only human being,
just like everybody,
but I wss so sick of seeing
every man call me Shawty,
so I did what I could
and got out of that life.
One day, I still wanna be
somebody's wife.
I'm so sorry, Mom,
for all the trouble I caused.
I never, once, wanted to be
a thief or a fraud.
I also never wanted to be
a thot or a broad.
By the time he was born,
I had done gone too far.
I would go anywhere with
a man in a car,
but then, I saw the Light.
The blinders on my sight were gone.
God showed me how much
He had done.
He thought he had won,
but God's already won that game.
He will always be the same.
Forever and ever, now, I will be safe.
No one can ever take God's love away.
Again, I'm so sorry, Mom,
for all the trouble I caused.
I'm so sorry I
was suck a b**** and a fraud.
I'm also so sorry for denying our God.
I was so in love,
I couldn't see the signs above.
I couldn't even see
what was right in front of me.
I had so many there to love me
when I was at my worst.
Only few of them saw this
as the last and the first.
For the ones who saw right through me,
I congratulate and thank you all,
but only God can say
if this will be my hardest fall.
Only time will tell of all our beautiful mistakes.
I can only say that all our pain
is covered by His Grace.