Fighting...., Fighting to the world, fighting to parents coz we don't share the same opinion, Fighting to my own self, Fighting to my thoughts, Fighting for right path, Fighting for direction, Fighting for future, Fighting to reach on top, Fighting for success....
My heart has dropped to it's lowest level, I'm sulking, having hard time...
Doing things reluctantly, coz I'm pressurized, I left my dream 5 year ago for doing this....,
wanna become something else but couldn't, because i have to fulfill someone's expectations & discharge someone's promise...., i feel miserable when i think about my dream, I left it alone, I betrayed it, I've trampled it down....
& today here I'm spitting it out loud, crying my eyes out,screaming my lungs out internally in my head, driving the guilt off that why I left it....
Tears are gliding through my cheeks, eyes are swollen, cheeks are red, lips are wet and pink, biting lips to prevent whine, hands are shivering....
Trynna resist conflicting thoughts.
Gulping,,
watching myself into the mirror,
Glaring....,
I can see intense rage in my eyes...(oh by the way the view of crying girl is beautiful. small red and wet eyes looks fascinating),
Now questioning myself - What do you Want? What u want to achieve?, Are you really putting all your efforts into it?
I'm totally messed up with these questions,...