understand something very clearly

I tried to make your life different

I tried to give you everything you want just to make you smile....

but you always depressed

you make me worry Alyssa

how long is it love thing going to last

I don't know cuz I'm starting to get on shore

on the bus looking outside the window
looking towards the grave. Pondering
it's our love dead

buried six feet below

can it be dicked up
and revive

or is just too late for us

I really do love you...

I feel like you don't look at me the same...

or I'm just blind by my Darkness


and the sickness is starting to take over

the spark is burning out...

because there is no trust


lust it's poison inside of a relationship

and marriage....

when the Black Widow comes to visit
she gets on her knees

and get you head

from the above

if you look in her eyes you'll be trapped by her gaze but you will turn to Stone..
that is cheating for you ..

something I did not mean to do

at the time you was getting me strange vibes and red flags and you still do

and I have not did anything

cuz I told you I would never cheat again..

I didn't mean to get you hurt in the process of my mistakes

doing a threesome is still cheating

does not matter how you put it

I feel like the blame is on me

I'm not playing the victim

this toxic relationship is killing me slowly

I'm trying to do my best to make it work

but you tell everybody everything
there is no privacy


1 2 your dad his friend

why do you tell them everything we do what is the point

why you just can't be silent and we can work it out....

I never took anything from you and I never will

or put you in danger

I feel like I don't belong here with you I get judged Everyday by your family

because I don't have a job and I'm a nobody


you say I'm a somebody
do you

I know that that's why I'm trying to make it better for us....

but you make it hard when you get angry at me for no reason

you put your hands on me I never put my hands on you

what the hell

that's called being a hypocrite


I had to restrain myself for hurting you because I love you just like my family


don't you get it I'm trying my best for you




I asked you to get up and do something that's a problem




maybe I should not ask you for anything anymore

maybe I should leave you alone

I know what you're going to say it's your choice

you just need to open your mouth then I will leave


everyone I ever loved walked away from me it would make a difference

we all die alone inside the darkness eventually it would not matter to me but I love you but no no one beautiful brown eyes like you do


no one does things you do for me

no one can love me like you do

that's why I stay

I'm working on the things you told me to work on

I forgot Angel like you are hard to please

good luck trying to find that a guy like me if you go down that road

I hope you stay awhile my dear Alyssa