I never knew if it would last this long.
I never wanted to hurt you like it do now and then, I never wished to love you like it never wanted to cry a rivers and seas every time I think of you and her. I feel damaged hurt and stupid to have allowed this chemistry to build strong bond.

I am sick and tired of this fucked up love kind which do nothing to me but harm only harm. I spent the days and nights crying and trying to overcome this but it just can't end it's real and strong but for what?

for this unrewarded love, which I wish I never felt. this unrequited love left me with pain, grief and shame. oh no it's not even in the past tense. I live with the grievance always I miss our overnight calls and it kills me to imagine that
you are with her now.

telling her what you used to tell me I wish you could tell me , you love me once again even if it means nothing though I know it's a lie but I wish to hear it. I love you it's undeniable but what do you do?
the crowds thinks we're together although I am dying to have you.

I am pining for you while you are making love with her, well I am not her
I feel guilty but can not do nothing just to be with you. o desire for your love, touch, holding hands, kiss and hugs like in the past though it was all fake I still love you.

so now I accept the fact that it can't disappear overnight because it's deep and strong but hoping that the storm will pass don't want to talk to you but do me a favour and call me.
but before I leave you guys alone know that I don't blame you or me, o don't blame her either, I blame the fate this damn fate brought us together knowing that we can't be together.
I wish I had met you before then it's would have worked out, I wish I didn't love you
#TheUnrequitedLove

© Gisele
unrequited love