They're shocked when I tell them
I don't regret my attempts

I'm shocked they don't aknowledge
All it takes to make an attempt
And an other one
And an other one

I don't regret trying
Even know I failed

I regret not being strong enough
To have the will to stay

They ask me what happened
To lead me here
I answer "Life happened"

They don't like my answer

They say I hit rock bottom
And that I can climb up

I tell them I'm sure I'm still far from rock bottom
And that I don't want to reach it

I tell them I'm not willing
To try and climb back up
As my hands are bleeding
From all my past attempts

They're sure it's better once you climb back up
But I don't care for things to get better
I'm tired of trying

© Ytha