The last thing you said as you covered me up was "we will be okay"
and then I wake...
You lied, it's not okay.
I'm not okay.
Now I turn to tell you something
and you are not there.
I wish I knew you were at least somewhere.
I want to remember you as smiling and loving.
All I can picture is your face turning blue and then grey as I helplessly tried to breathe life back into you.
I wish I could hear you say 'I love you'
but all I hear is the sound of my breath leaving your lungs as I beat on your chest. I can't rise up from this one, there is nothing left and I know they say give it time because it is still very fresh. Time has only made things worse and I tried my best but you took me with you when you left. Just an empty shell on auto pilot I guess with horrible images dancing in my head. I don't want to face the world without you.
© Oaktree