Filling life with chores of life

And not life

I’m not through with

My responsibilities

They seem to be ever receding shores

So I’m trying to fill my life with works

Filling every gap

In my time’s empty coves

There’s no race to win

Can’t afford idle sin

Though I’ve to reach an end-line

I’m not a winner

Nor I’ve excuses any

I must keep going

But like a winner I have a scheme

I’ve to overcome

That’s my job

To be known a winner

This spiralling loop of darkness

and rage at how hard however might seem

Don’t ask me to stop

I can’t stop

I must keep going, I must keep busy

Stopping would mean

Stopping to breathe

I can’t stop breathing though I’d love to

I’m afraid

So very afraid

Yes, I’m afraid to take that pause

You granted me out of love

You tell me I can’t afford to think

So I take the pause

You see a problem, but I still see a solution

My energy

Is depleted, yes, but

Not less than what I need to think and weave

I’ve just enough

To pick up the memories

From the well of the past

To stop I must not

I can’t afford not to think

So I give my life love what I’ve all to give

My head is down

For heavy is my wisdom

So let me give until…

I’m gone

As there is nothing left of me to give

If I’ve to live

Let me live with joy and peace

No buildings no estates can determine my success

To love all of life

I’ve lived and in love through all the rest live

You have no measure

To measure what success I have achieved

Days have moved

In the pursuit of things better

Running on time

Raising fences

I blinked they’ve gone

They’ve moved a bit too quickly

All childhood, youth and the mid-life

How I wish

Time was a bit longer!

After all the struggle and all the heartaches

Endured all life

My feet should have taken me bit far

How I would have known

What this day had had in store?

When every day

I hoped should be a celebration?

With my children and

Grandchildren

And the comfort of the new ways

Wish my feet were able stayed

A race noble undertaken

Ah! This life, so unfair in so many ways!!

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