I couldn't believe what I just heard, the words like a knife struck my already wounded heart...

"I think we must not talk anymore" He said

"Why?" My heart was beating fast.

"Because I'm afraid of the future. I don't want to hurt you"

"Why? What is there to be afraid of?"

Silence..

Silence..

"Marriage? Are you afraid of commitment? Are you not loyal to the one you loved?" I couldn't hold the words anymore.

"If I love, I don't leave"

"Then why? What are you afraid of?"

"I don't want to hurt you. You are a very nice girl. You are sweet... I can't... I can't hurt you. Just know that I really really like you now."

"If you like me. Then why must you leave?"

"It's better for the both of us. If we move forward, it'll be risky. We connect too fast, there seemed like an invisible link between us after we met..."

"Exactly. We have this strong bond! But why must you leave? CAN'T YOU LOVE ME THEN?"

"I can love you but I'm afraid to hurt you. It's impossible for the two of us to be together. "

"Why!!! Please enlighten me! I can't understand!" My heart just couldn't take it.

"Because if we think logically, we're both from different countries." His words rung in my ear like a thunder

That's it? I asked myself. Is he a coward? Can't he be responsible for what he did?

"Then why? Why did you make me feel like this?" My tears streaming down my face. Why did he evoke feelings in me when he can't even be responsible for it in the first place?

"I am so sorry... I don't want to hurt you, please don't be upset..."

But how? How can I not be upset? How can I still be happy after all that happened.

"I am so sorry. I am a fool."

Is that even an excuse? I couldn't utter the words out. They're just in my heart. Inside the wounded heart.

"A fool?" that's the only word that came out.

"I am so sorry." He said again. "Maybe you're an angel. You impress me a lot. I can't hurt you. You're a good girl... "

Just like that. He just gave up just like that.
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