How can I forgive you, after everything you've done?
What you don't understand is that I am an ocean.
My emotions are like a leviathan, roaming deep waters, that only I can see.
You pulled that wretched beast to the surface,
With your gentle kisses and promises scribbled on paper.
How can I want you after all that you've done?
I knew that as you drove away with him, that you were leaving me.
That you had chosen him.
That the gentle kisses, were nothing but passing fancies.
I knew. But I wanted to believe.
What you dont understand is that I had to drown that leviathan.
It took me with it.
I sank beneath the waves, screaming your name. Leaving the water the color of blood and regret.
I hate you because I knew you were using me.
I hate you because I knew you wanted the comfort I brought you.
You wanted the safety I provided. You wanted the what I was.
Not who I was.