Motherless aches lay claim to my body;

The love pulsing in my heart, searching for signs of you;

Just like your last breathe, withering slow with falter.

My hope and joys are smothering:

"What in damned name did I do?!"

The reminders comes in waves,

screaming and echoing in the pain without her.


Cold nights, lonesome hugs without arms around me.

We shared a mother, we lost her first.

I lost you too; the one who I last felt would o' left...

My mother's passing hit me hard;
In yours, at least you made with my company..

Throbbing thoughts accompanied in the idea "..what could of been?"

Uncontrolled, wilde, and confused;
Heart shattering under pressure from my victim of aimed stability,

It's only the beginning from here, isn't it time already to let my wings spread free?


"Did I make you proud?"...I worry to myself...

"Did I show you that I could 'be an adult?'"

Ran away from you at 17,

But then created you such an embarrassing scheme;

"What's the fucking price for always just trying in being me?!"


The days are dragging on, the days don't feel alive anymore;

Tears fall.

Questions changed through the years,

(drags into months) Thinking back;

Even now, shakes me to the core;


"...Did I show you I cared enough..."
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