So sorry for your loss your old daughter died,
when she was in the first year of her teenage life.
And then she thought,
I can't die, I can't live
I'm stuck in between
I am not sure who I'm blaming for this
But this isn't the real thing.

She was screaming inside
I can listen her
To be honest she said she had now two sides
She Can be sad if she want, but she was always happy around you all
And she said to herself
Is this my false for real happiness
I'm not sure if I want to be happy
But I'm sure I want mental peace
I can understand her thoughts though she was not expressing,
As a teenager, there is too much weight in her brain, she can't Carry this anymore
So she wanna die
And she was afraid of what will happen after she take this Decision
So till now she was alive
And now
all I believe in karma that is a real thing
When she was happy,I saw that
You all turned to your real sides
This makes me so anxious
You all never understand her
And I'm here explaining myself something
But I just can't explain to you all
I know it will make me so nervous
And she said
I'm never being the same again
And now I'm reciting this,
So sorry for your loss, your old daughter just died.
I just thought of something funny
Do you wanna listen it?
I know you will not be so surprise
But you will be bored
But if you are listening
I wanna tell you
Is this gonna change someday
Am I gonna overcome in this way?
And she was saying
That she has done something wrong, which she don't wanna express
But it's not all about her false
She was continuously changing her decisions
And by seeing this I have always wanted to asked her
Are you okay?
But she didn't replied
She had been always lost in her fantasies
and now she was only talking to herself
She was so exhausted of this society where gender fluidity
was existing
she have always wanted to change this
She was okay , because she was having some dreams
She took a really long time to think of her dreams
so she doesn't wanna loose it
And I hope she will work on this
To be continued....
Till I'm not dead





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