I try to grab you by the hand
But the grabbling that I'm doing seems to be in my heart
You're so distant to me
But every time when I don't need you
You happens to impose yourself

You behave like a narcissist to my life
You've housed me in a sewage drainage
You strangle me so I can suffocate
You're always belittling me
Making me an unable man
In everything I put my mind in

Everytime you visit I lose all my ego's
My anxiety piles like a heap of sand
As of my self-esteem below a minus degree in a European cold season
I try to cry but you have drank all the pools of my tears

You've driven me into the deadliest state
You've fast tracked me into depression
Whenever I look in a mirror I see failure
I see a man who is incapable of anything
A mistake which God should've passed by
A no imagine to His,

An unknown to His Kingdom
Something which He Himself would be surprised that it exist
At most time a question arises; is it worth it?
Why am I still in this alien world?
Emotions why are you doing this to me?
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