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overthinking about exercise
i should do more exercise
i should hold back my tongue
i should think less
and hope more
i should let myself cry
i think all of that as i wipe my shoes clean
of ice melt

i should sing more
i should dream
i should love
i should forgive
i should do more fucking exercise
so i look pretty
who cares if i look better?
who cares about being pretty?

apparently me

i should be selfless
hug and kiss
i should be kind
who cares about any of this?
who will care about us in five hundred years when we will be dead?
i should believe
who the fuck cares about honesty?
about reality?
fantasy?
this is all a hullicination
nothing is real
and we don't matter
at all

how did i get from exercising to feeling like shit?



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