#TheUnrequitedLove
I love you, I still do though you can't be mine
I know that but I can't get over it.
it's not your fault but I hope you understand me too. I still love you.
I call it unrequited love but I don't even know why, do you really not love me?
or the skies are not on my side.
in few days it will be four years of me fooling around thinking that we could be together.
my voice trembled when I was confessing my love to you. my heart beat sped up then but I thought it was good sign.

four years of my eyes watering every time I go though my phone and I reach out to our pictures.
today I missed you very much wanted to talk
but your phone was off or you probably changed your number.

I call it unrequited love but I don't even know why because I can feel your arms around my body, I can see you every time I turn around to another side of my bed.

I call it unrewarded love but I don't know why because I can hear you Whisper into my ears that you loves me. I often get this crazy idea of you abandoning her for me, the feeling is tense.

I miss you every time I look upon the skies watching how are stars beautiful.
I get reminded of your nickname for me.
I get reminded of every little secrets we shared when we watched sunset and sunrise next morning.

I don't know if I still love you or the ropes that binds us still hold me tight to long for you
but what I feel is goddamn hurtful.
I can wake up in the middle of night and listen to your voicemails back then in our good days.
I play and replay them again and again.

it's okaay for you not to love me I tell myself that. but it's not okaay thinking of you always makes me sick. not because I resent you but because I love you.
this unrequited love made me realize that I have big heart and I think I will forever long for you.
I am sorry that I still love you

Dedicated to my Crush
#unhappy#regret#love# #lifelesson#Letter to the boy I used to love
© Gisele