(Verse 1)

A bag of gifts to give away
A great big sack for Santas sleigh
Filled with things I've felt today,
But with no flying deer on reins
No sled or a ruby nose for kicks
All on my back, the pain so sick
Just a sack of boxes of bricks,

Bricks, my thoughts, flow in fantasy
Where I can see herself with me
No desire honed for a physical meet
Just gentle touch, caress, a reach
To touch two hearts so close to feed
On lonely thoughts still self-complete
Such walls built tough, her eyes do breach
So my fantasy flows, as far as can see

Bricks, my thoughts, flow in fantasy
Invading my morals in all their greed
My counciousness then they try to lead
But bit in the bud by all of my need;
For her in my life
No matter the strife
Locked away in my mind
As she turns and she sighs
Unknowing my dreams
That toss me to sleep
The murderous screams
My thoughts won't concede
So they fight and they bleed
Over her of her breed
Though she'd never accede...

(Chorus)

Sometimes I only hate myself
But only when she comes around
Then when she leaves my heart collapses
Nothing else can heal this frown,

She bent me in all the right ways
But now it hurts me to say
I'm no longer okay
Just get by one more day,

Keep those thoughts out at bay
Don't let them be taint
Leaving me all up and ashamed
But no one else is to blame
So I accept my own bane
Just to keep myself sane
I hope that she'll wait
Is all I can say,

No one feels the same
Why would you want me that way
Walk away like a saint
Leaving me hungry in vain
Able to push away Cain
At least for one more day
And maybe one day
I'll say

(Verse 2)

If I made a list
Of what without I would miss
A soul of such brilliance
Perfection so sound
Some have a few down
But she opens the door
As if...