Don't I deserve it?
Don't I?

Haven't I done enough already, to see and be more than I get?
Every day I get up
and every day I stay alive.
every fucking day
so someone tell me why??

Why am I still not enough?
Why is me never enough?
Do you love me, still,
even though you're gone?
and was I worth it,
the joy, even though it didn't last long?

And I'm walking through my life
but staying in one place
a side-character, second choice
important to the band, but still a back-up voice.

Because, it's true.
some people are special,
some people you'll need.
but all you keep proving
is that your special is not me.

and I can't figure why,
if it's my size or my eyes,
my smile or what I hide
but I'm tired of chasing down
this dream I dream again and again
it's pointless because no one needs me quite like I need them

But I deserve it, don't I?
or am I waiting for something bigger?
wheres the good karma, for fucks' sake?
how long is it going to take?

It's not a big deal,
I know. God, I know.
But I just want to win.
A smile, that's all.
Someone to remind me
I'm not stuck at a wall.

Listen to me, my friends
as they chant.
I'm important, I know.
but we're all stuck in a trance.

Because I'm a second choice,
a side character in my own life.
because you people are all I'm living for.
But all my love is something long denied.

but I deserve it, don't I?
the smile I used to wear?
I deserve it, don't I?
I know it's still in me, somewhere . . . .