Suddenly it's different
Like I took a deep breath and it snapped
The last straw I held unto to survive
And I find myself falling into the abyss
My inner child I protected out of sight
Suddenly I can't see color
The very lens on which I see the world gone

A feeling of nakedness envelopes me
I find that I never moved
I am still at the start line
like the whistle blew but I never ran
I never marched foward to fight
thus I never saw the front lines
In this war to find happiness

My mind had seen the end,
A taste of happiness it savoured
A feeling I never truly felt
Perhaps that was why I felt numb
Because those illusions were not real.

I had hopes and dreams to heal
when my demons I failed to face
Hopes that left me drunk like one on the rum,...