Stuck in a world where I feel all alone
I never felt safe in a place called home
a lifetime of abuse and trauma I faced
but me telling the truth makes me a disgrace.
Suicidal thoughts and urges I've fought
I remember the days I was feeling distraught
those days when I looked the devil in his eyes
he looked through me and saw my disguise.
I never had the chance to heal from the past
there's so many secrets I'm ready to unmask
a lifetime of pain that I'm ready to reveal
I woke up this morning just wanting to heal.
For so many years, I've struggled with this
the devil looked me in the eyes & gave me a kiss
even though I remember those days all alone
by speaking the truth, I feel right at home.




© Josiah Bhola Hillaire