Caught in the reality of my own mistakes,
Your misfortune placed by my reckless hands,
And now I find myself ever lost in its solitude,
Wondering why the space between us still expands,

I only wanted to be happy and be loved,
But then I fell ever deeper in love with you,
I ignored the parts of me that were content,
And now their parts of myself I wish i still knew,

You came into my life and changed everything,
I don't know how I thought I was doing right,
I let my emotions scramble and mix with chaos,
I was fighting so hard but it was the wrong fight,

I fought you, and your heart with resent,
So blind to the irrefutable damage I was leaving behind,
Any chance I may have had to ever be understood,
Now just a constant hell replaying in the back of my mind,

I no longer have the confidence to say you'll stay,
And no matter how hard that reality has come to be,
I can not blame you for you slipping away,
Because I made it so hard for you to stand next to me,

I know that your still trying, I see it in your heart,
But I also see the fear and tears you try to ignore,
I've come to know you well enough to understand,
That you don't want to fear loving me like this anymore,

Your heart is so pure, hidden by your hardened tones,
A testament of your own ways to remain strong,
You gave me the key and let me into your life,
Only for me to leave you questioning why it's all gone wrong,

I can't take back the pain that I've given you,
But I'm searching for the ways to dule it's trouble,
I'll never give up on trying to mend our severed selves,
Finding myself in the hopes I'll again be lovable,

For the parts of us that you still hold dear,
I will nourish and field, dedicated to it's strive,
Even if there seems to be no hope left inside,
Whatever it takes to revive and being our love back alive,

What we have experienced together wasn't only pain,
In between the hurting we can find so much grace,
That's what I hold on to when I feel like breaking,
The beauty of your heart written on your beautiful face,

I'm sorry we find ourselves where we are now,
With my last of hope I'm holding on tighter then ever,
Waiting for you to tell me we are going to be all right,
And we don't have to feel the way we do now forever,

I love you my darling dove you are my one true love,
This is one of the hardest things I've ever had to do,
But it'll all be worth it once that day finally comes,
And we once again share the purest love once knew.

I'll never give up on us. And if one day you do,
I'll never give up on you. Even if you have to...

© justin_ur_imagination