I don't need the perfect life
I need to suffer in dignity
I need to be beat up to a sheet
Malled into a pulp
Rummaged within by the wind
Slammed away by the storm
Bloodied and wounded
Broken and molded
Flushed and scolded

I need to be crucified
Suffer a fate worse than death
Face it, feel it, sink and wallow
Suffocate and drown in...