I know your there, I know you can hear me God
I need You to break through and steal my doubt. please take my fears and misery I feel without, the voices of my little ones make it all seem better.
but I'm in no place to hear anything right now.
idk why I'm so shut in and closed off. I'm so angry and upset , mostly mad at myself .
I'm not sure what I did so badly or wrong to be punished this way. but FUCK do I need some of this burden wiped away and lifted off my soul.I dont know how strong you think I am to handle all of this God
you made me so you're the only one who Knows..I need your word and promises and I know the scriptures are meant to be a guiding light for me too but Help God!.I have to be strong and stable for these babies I have to protect.adding so many obstacles on top of life that's already hard is asking a little too much of me perhaps.
perhaps all I gotta do is have faith? trust and believe in you Jesus? but where do I begin????? can you pull me back on track Lord?
am I too far gone? is the pain harvested too deep to dissect?
god you have helped worse situations then what I am asking but please crash through my life like a tidal wave and wipe out all things not of you. im begging you God, make me new and whole and get rid of all the devils work.
© BRiERiN