**SONG**
I chase, although i know better,
I'm addicted to self destructive,
I think I crave the chaos
Gimme gimme more unhinged,
I like it,
I grew up in an environment
full of dread and sadness
I like it
I think,
I think,
Maybe I'm just addicted.

Hold me back,
But you can't,
This reflection has no hands.
Take a minute to think about it
wait, wait no I can't
I can't take it
Get me outta my brain
I crave the chaos
I like it
I think I like the pain
Bleed me out, ooh what a game
I like it
Bring me shame
Bring me pessimism
Play with my brain
I like it
At least i think

No wait

I chase although I know better
I'm addicted to self destructive
I think I crave the chaos
Gimme gimme more unhinged
I like it
I grew up in an environment
Full of dread and sadness
I like it
I think
I think
Maybe I'm just addicted

I chase, although I get no where
I get godamn no where,
I'm addicted to false confidence
And masking my hate
I like it
When it falls apart,
I think I like it
I grew into this
I'm just playing my part
Wait,
Maybe I'm just addicted.

shake shake
fumbling hands
shattered glass
I jump
quaking breath
I'm breaking
reel it in
cast it out again
emotionally baiting

I like it
when I feel lost
there is comfort in falling apart
fostering a lost sense of cause
I think I like it most when I've had enough

I like it when I come undone
lost my sense of right from wrong
I like it when I've gone numb
wait maybe I'm wrong
...
wait maybe I'm wrong

maybe I'm just addicted


© Jada E. Clark


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