was naive enough for a decade or so beleiving in my own fucked up version of reality
yes !! the one in which I used to believe like I was the one born after ages to give sermons on universal duality
with people making ridiculously cruel jokes on my condition with impunity
my only resort was to isolate myself,trying to dodge those insecurities
which kept chip chopping my subconscious with those horrible logical fallacies
that I almost beleived to be true things but it always takes a bit more time to cross the rough blue seas
especially when the compass doesn't seem to be working and the crew is lethargic
that's usually the moment when you're about to give up and start praying for some magic..

until I got hold of my senses and realised my true potential wasn't going to bloom by itself
unless I own my mistakes and take responsibility of the shit else I'll be all screwed in an instant
took up mindfulness meditation and started occupying myself with vigourous reading of my subject
overhauled my routine for the better cuz I already had seen the worst not though by my intent
but I kept reminding myself that nobody has it all sorted out in reality
and life doesn't deal anybody with fair hands or without partiality
but you gotta use your unfair advantage to the extreme to get ahead of the rest
of the mob who don't realise everyone has a different set of questions in the test
that life presents them with and it's not surprising many end up winning where they didn't even intend to
and losing where it mattered the most just because of their fucked up priorities giving the shit a nasty end to !!










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