Soul ties are so strong.
Trauma bonds are so deep.
It’s so hard to walk away.
It’s so hard to untie the knot once you’ve gotten all tangled up in the deepest pit of another’s soul.
It’s so hard to break.
It’s so hard to leave.
It’s so hard to set yourself free.
It’s so hard to detach.
It’s so hard to leave the person and the situation alone.
Once you’re tied it feels like you’re bonded to the person for life.
I think this happens because we are in search of a feeling.
We are in search of the person we once met at the very beginning.
We are in search of the comfortability we felt when we first met the person we began to love.
They say love is blind.
That may be true.
Of course it’s true when your soul is tied with someone else.
Of course it’s true when you’re bonded with someone based on shared trauma, insecurities, experiences, etc.
It’s a hurting feeling when the person who once made you feel so safe, turns into the person you feel the most unsafe with.

But the connection is so strong.
It’s so strong like no other.
You’re dying to get the feeling back from when you two first met.
Despite of the arguments.
Despite all the wary nights.
Despite all the heartbreaks.
Despite the constant disrespect.
Despite the nonstop tears rolling down your cheeks.
Despite the name calling and insults.
Despite being exposed to the ugly side of this person whom you once thought was so beautiful.
You still stay.
You don’t leave.
You put up with their ugly ways, because you still see the beauty in them.

You still see the good in them.
You still see pieces of them that needs your love.
You continue to fight to love them.
They push you away.
They throw you away.
They do everything they can to run you away.
Yet you don’t budge.
You’re still searching.
Searching for that person you once loved before they turn into someone you hate.
Searching for answers.
Searching for a reason to stay.
Searching for a reason to go.
Searching for a reason to not give up.
Searching for a reason to give up.
Feeling incredibly tied to another’s soul....