if only I had spoke my mind,
if only I had took the opportunity when I had it,
if only I had followed my dreams,
if only I had expressed my emotions,
if only I had went on that trip,
if only I had went to college,
if only I had went to university,
if only I had said goodbye,
if only I had followed my intuition,
if only I had travelled the world,
if only I had lived my life,
if only I had more courage,
if only I had been more brave,
if only I had been more understanding,
if only I had more motivation,
if only I had more enthusiasm,
if only I had...

famous last words, don't be a if only type of person. Do what makes you happy, live in your truth, follow your dreams and your passion, don't give up.