Hes been gone for two years,
I want to get drung, i want to get high, just so i dont feel the pain in my heart.
No one gets it and no one understands that i want to get numb.
The pain in my heart is still here, i hope i will end it on the new years.
I dont care about anything anymore, maybe thats what i was meant for. If only i could see him for the last time again. Maybe my heart would be full again.
Its not a boy, its not a girl, its a pet that i have the biggest love for.
Maybe i should join him, like my another pet did. I shouldnt be alive, like for a year or three
Its something i cant stop think about. Maybe i should just die.
But how could i?
My friends need me and im there for them.
I dont need anyone, i can be here for myself. So why am i getting punished? Just because i want to feel nothing. Maybe its a curse, maybe its my blood. I cant feel a thing, and thats what i like. Its like im not...