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11.0v ( Part 2)
( Part 2)
The v5.0 found herself as an instructor as soon as she completed her degree. It's like a dream coming true, she is ready to explore the stage after being in the other side of the table for years. It was the time to overcome stage fear and talking to random people of almost her age.
I still remember her soft heart with an iron mask, those heartbeats of fear and no expression on surface... ! The stillness that was adding to her innate knowledge, a depth and a sweet voice of confidence! Those nights of preparation, looking for answers...
Am I teaching or relearning was what her inner core questioning. Once you taste hard work you can't sit quiet and teaching another 60 a same concept... what a satisfaction she was feeling!
They v6.0 found herself married, responsible. A girl who was loving to laugh all day... had joined a team, who never laugh on normal jokes. Here the point of jokes were her parents! Humiliation was everyday part of life. It's kind of was normal 14 years back May be in every house! But for her it was first time... life was teaching to become patient. All her dreams died, with a partner narcissist, self centered and always making fun of her all the time in front of his friends.
The girl so strong was feeling empty from inside. Why with me... again she had one and only friend to share everything... !!! In an arranged marriage, she can't share with the rest of her family what's the problem. Because there is no law to punish someone who breaks your dreams. Who don't drink, or beat or abuse you... what will you complain about him. It was hard for her to understand too at an early age, why is she feeling so sad with her family around. It took her years to realize, the difference between a friend and an enemy with friendly mask all the time around. She completely lost herself. Now to this version of me if you ask... who is she, She will tell you I don't know. If you ask her why are you here... she will say... Because I love my parents and it will be disrespectful to break a relationship for any reason.
Today if I look back, I am realizing it's not just me, it was many around me who were in such situations and everyone around them in society and family, are even today convincing them that it's normal, it's fine, it's what it is. So they don't even know, who they are, what they want, what they like or dislike. Society has taught that dharma and karma is for the sake of your parents and your respect, compromise with life. Even if you can fly ... crawl on the floor... otherwise a relationship will break and that's insulting.
If you taught everything to your son, but forgot to teach how to respect her woman, you are a failure. If you taught everything to your daughter but forgot to take care of her mental health and not compromise with life at any point, you failed.
After two tries of failed suicide, she realized she can rise. She realized who she was. Life reminded her v4.0. by making her a mom...!
The v7.0 took birth by giving birth to a girl child ! This v7.0 copied v4.0. In the middle of the chaos, she started following Robin Sharma. What an inspiring writer. She planned her life, how should it look like 10 years from now. She started working on herself, giving no f* to any bitches around.
Hilarious, she started laughing on herself!
Now the bitch in her so traumatized that she can handle any trauma with a smile !
🥳😁🙏🏻🔥
The innocent girl being a mom, stepped out to continue further her studies with a Master's taking loans and learned self defense skills. She started removing all garbage, from her head, from her thoughts, from her play list, from her watch list and wish list. This is my v8.0. She is now a warrior with all latest skills in her hand like Maa Durga weapons to cut the unseen, unknown, fear into pieces with one weapon in each hand ! It was the most needed self development period of two years after being in a tough relationship for 8 years.
The v9.0 took a step back, due to 10 years of gap in her career now, even after having a master's in Computer Science she started learning a completely new skill set she was completely unaware of, Software Testing.
It was a very very difficult decision for her. She had to mow learn to explore unknown roads in her own... which was tough for a small town village girl. She had to figure out local transport, timings, expenses... Calculations and along with that had to keep ego and self esteem aside, to learn back in batches of 10 years small kiddos. By that time, once she started to focus on herself, in the research, a reason Universe had added was Sadhguru! Her Yoga practices, made this impossible looking journey possible for her! Four months of efforts to learn something completely new, at an age of 34, with a kid of 5 years old, an unsupportive partner around, no friends, no family members around, except her brother a call in distance, although was in other half of the globe. A struggle of 4 months. There was not a single day, she didn't feel like giving up. But everytime, she felt that numb, Mahadev saved her, by making her turn inward. By showering her with unlimited patience! She got her first Software Engineer job after 12 years of completing Engineering ! And interestingly she was earning again as much she was 12 years back as an instructor.... here comes the v10.0
One thing she had learned by now was whatever happens never ever give up on your dreams! Once you are ready to put the efforts, the universe will shower with opportunities !!!
The version 10.0 is the latest evolved one, she knows how to prioritize herself, how to numb the chaos within and outside. She knows how Yoga works miraculously! She knows to keep her heart safe, laugh often and take care of herself and her baby at any cost, at any situation around!
© RadheRadhe
The v5.0 found herself as an instructor as soon as she completed her degree. It's like a dream coming true, she is ready to explore the stage after being in the other side of the table for years. It was the time to overcome stage fear and talking to random people of almost her age.
I still remember her soft heart with an iron mask, those heartbeats of fear and no expression on surface... ! The stillness that was adding to her innate knowledge, a depth and a sweet voice of confidence! Those nights of preparation, looking for answers...
Am I teaching or relearning was what her inner core questioning. Once you taste hard work you can't sit quiet and teaching another 60 a same concept... what a satisfaction she was feeling!
They v6.0 found herself married, responsible. A girl who was loving to laugh all day... had joined a team, who never laugh on normal jokes. Here the point of jokes were her parents! Humiliation was everyday part of life. It's kind of was normal 14 years back May be in every house! But for her it was first time... life was teaching to become patient. All her dreams died, with a partner narcissist, self centered and always making fun of her all the time in front of his friends.
The girl so strong was feeling empty from inside. Why with me... again she had one and only friend to share everything... !!! In an arranged marriage, she can't share with the rest of her family what's the problem. Because there is no law to punish someone who breaks your dreams. Who don't drink, or beat or abuse you... what will you complain about him. It was hard for her to understand too at an early age, why is she feeling so sad with her family around. It took her years to realize, the difference between a friend and an enemy with friendly mask all the time around. She completely lost herself. Now to this version of me if you ask... who is she, She will tell you I don't know. If you ask her why are you here... she will say... Because I love my parents and it will be disrespectful to break a relationship for any reason.
Today if I look back, I am realizing it's not just me, it was many around me who were in such situations and everyone around them in society and family, are even today convincing them that it's normal, it's fine, it's what it is. So they don't even know, who they are, what they want, what they like or dislike. Society has taught that dharma and karma is for the sake of your parents and your respect, compromise with life. Even if you can fly ... crawl on the floor... otherwise a relationship will break and that's insulting.
If you taught everything to your son, but forgot to teach how to respect her woman, you are a failure. If you taught everything to your daughter but forgot to take care of her mental health and not compromise with life at any point, you failed.
After two tries of failed suicide, she realized she can rise. She realized who she was. Life reminded her v4.0. by making her a mom...!
The v7.0 took birth by giving birth to a girl child ! This v7.0 copied v4.0. In the middle of the chaos, she started following Robin Sharma. What an inspiring writer. She planned her life, how should it look like 10 years from now. She started working on herself, giving no f* to any bitches around.
Hilarious, she started laughing on herself!
Now the bitch in her so traumatized that she can handle any trauma with a smile !
🥳😁🙏🏻🔥
The innocent girl being a mom, stepped out to continue further her studies with a Master's taking loans and learned self defense skills. She started removing all garbage, from her head, from her thoughts, from her play list, from her watch list and wish list. This is my v8.0. She is now a warrior with all latest skills in her hand like Maa Durga weapons to cut the unseen, unknown, fear into pieces with one weapon in each hand ! It was the most needed self development period of two years after being in a tough relationship for 8 years.
The v9.0 took a step back, due to 10 years of gap in her career now, even after having a master's in Computer Science she started learning a completely new skill set she was completely unaware of, Software Testing.
It was a very very difficult decision for her. She had to mow learn to explore unknown roads in her own... which was tough for a small town village girl. She had to figure out local transport, timings, expenses... Calculations and along with that had to keep ego and self esteem aside, to learn back in batches of 10 years small kiddos. By that time, once she started to focus on herself, in the research, a reason Universe had added was Sadhguru! Her Yoga practices, made this impossible looking journey possible for her! Four months of efforts to learn something completely new, at an age of 34, with a kid of 5 years old, an unsupportive partner around, no friends, no family members around, except her brother a call in distance, although was in other half of the globe. A struggle of 4 months. There was not a single day, she didn't feel like giving up. But everytime, she felt that numb, Mahadev saved her, by making her turn inward. By showering her with unlimited patience! She got her first Software Engineer job after 12 years of completing Engineering ! And interestingly she was earning again as much she was 12 years back as an instructor.... here comes the v10.0
One thing she had learned by now was whatever happens never ever give up on your dreams! Once you are ready to put the efforts, the universe will shower with opportunities !!!
The version 10.0 is the latest evolved one, she knows how to prioritize herself, how to numb the chaos within and outside. She knows how Yoga works miraculously! She knows to keep her heart safe, laugh often and take care of herself and her baby at any cost, at any situation around!
© RadheRadhe
