been so long since I've felt warm
alive to you yet dead me
spend my life chasing that heat
pleading someday that I can reform

all i was taught was how to survive
since I can remember I feel all alone
you were always there but never for me
so into depression the deeper I dive

desperately seeking a way to feel different
I found what i needed when I first got high
s so that's what i began to live for
slowly being swept away with the current

but now it's different I have someone new
who wants me for me and nothing more
someone who makes me want to be here
warming my soul as it turned blue

things need to change I need to grow
stop with the drugs replace them with you
still I struggle to just walk away
thankfully you know my journey is slow
© CJE