Drifting through the clouds in my head I tossed my head back swallowing my pain away, even if it was temporary I could throw away myself and pretend that I wasn't here locked in this inconvenient flesh.

Laughing, the fair weather friend beside me who thought I was joking pulled me a little closer.

My confession as always brought a smile to their lips, the participants in my self-destruction never believed me.

Tumbling into oblivion my muddled mind sought only silence at a brain...