This heaviness I feel
Is inexplicable
It weakens me somehow
This tiredness I feel
Isn't even physical
Mind feels tired somehow
Ask me if I am alright
I say I could pretend to be
to convince somebody
But I ain't saying that
as if I betray my own feelings
phases changed so fast
That life really revealed its ugliness
but I still seek for beauty within
feeling blessed for everything I have
What do I seek for I still wonder
What is this all about I still question...?
I regret that I kept my smiles on hold
Wiped my tears that overflown
Stuck in my head with thoughts overloud
In silly anxieties I drowned
Locked my emotions from outside world
& feelings freezed
out of left unexpressed
I foolishly caged my happiness
& didn't let it out
until the sky was clear
& Now I regret everything
the fact is
I should have smiled
& cried when needed
silence the thoughts
& try to swim before
I drown in my own anxieties
Didn't have to keep everything to myself
should have talked to people
to feel better somehow
Making it easier to handle
big storms with ease
I am not alright
But will soon revive
As soon as this time past me
I shall soon be alright
Till then let me fight with all might
To heal this pain
that feels too heavy inside me
The road ahead seems blurred
with my worries & anxieties
I still drive myself ahead
with believes & hopes
I know I wont be disappointed
I hold onto my beautiful dreams
there is still something ahead
waiting for me to claim it
to live a life that I dreamt
to fulfill wishes
I wished upon a shooting stars
I might have grown old
but still the child in me hopes
to be true someday
those wishes are never dead
I still shall find a way
Cant stand here helpless anyway
there's got to be a way
I need to find it right away
I ain't giving up anyway
to live my dreams in everyway

© Laya

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