The human heart has 4 chambers,
However mine has 4 lockers,
With names of all of the ones
Who were known to be my lovers,
These lockers stay closed,
When I am loved by someone,
But once the key is broken or lost,
The love too will be gone.
Three have lost their keys and so,
All of their lockers are opened,
That tells me I have learned to let go
Of the love that once had entered,
Stayed for a while and then left
Just like one of them did back then,
Made me feel unworthy and depressed
And never to believe in love again.
One disappeared from my life,
But I am the one to blame for that
Jumped into the relationship headfirst
And then doubted it would last,
I thought that it was love
But maybe I was wrong
It was curiosity that got me there
And after it, was a painful turn
It was still my first love but not so cruel
As the second one that left me scarred
The one that I had mentioned before
He who left me with a broken heart,
Everyday I pray for one good reason
That I should forgive and forget,
But I had given away so much love to him
Just to feel empty, yet full of regret,
Also depressed, to the point
I stopped believing in love,
But when I thought it was the end
I met another person,
The third one was a blessing for me
I am glad we are still friends
Healed me from my painful heartache,
And put it in the past tense,
Right person just the wrong time,
I hope he lives a happy life,
Finds someone who deserves him truly
And always make him smile,
Now then there is this last key
That has been kept safe and sound,
Locker is closed, I am now his
And I pray he is forever mine,
There are days, I fear it would break
And once this Locker opens
Will I be able to take that?
Will I be able to love again?
But I know now I want no one else
Other than he who said that,
Even if someday he loses this key,
His love will always find its way back.

(𝑭𝒓𝒐𝒎 𝒕𝒉𝒆 8𝒕𝒉 𝑺𝒑𝒆𝒄𝒕𝒓𝒖𝒎 𝑱𝒐𝒖𝒓𝒏𝒂𝒍)
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