I've spent countless nights beside you
    with my heart dying
No telling the number of tears shed
   so softly they never made a sound
As i lay next to you feeling like you
   were a millions miles away from
      here
Giving you all my love yet feeling like
    you wished me not to be around.

I can still remember the twinkle in
   your eyes the first time i was in your
     arms
It felt like this was the place that we
    both had always needed to be
But things have become so dark even
    after i've given so much love to you
I say nothing, but its like all those
   we're close to, have known the joke's
     on me.

Maybe the way i portray things isnt
     the way reality is at all
Sometimes i know that i read deeper
     into things than i probably should
But to understand it fully you must
     know the way i feel for you deep
          inside
And know its the truth that i'd let all
    the world know if i really could.

You are the deepest part of me and
    affect everything within my life
Somehow when all is said and done I
    always consider how you'd feel
And then i think about how each day
    my love continues to grow
It seems that when it comes to us
    your haunting demons twist up
      what's real.

I worry that our love is fast
    approaching the point of no return
It seems that you're slippin from me
     but i cant take my heart or soul
        back
I was being honest the day i told you
    that they were always yours to keep
That was so if you were ever lost from
     me, to my heart you'd have a map.

On second thought, maybe you're just
     a lesson that i was meant to learn
The heavens sent you so that i would
     see that i deserved so much more
So that next time id be careful and not
     seek, but let love find
And once it presented itself to me, Id
     be open to all that True Love has in
           store.

So, in this moment, though hurting,
     theres something i feel i must say
I wish for you to find that which i
     wasnt, yet you seemed to always
         seek
I bid farewell to one i thought i could
      never let walk away
Now i start a new journey without you, I couldn't believe a word i heard u
      speak.

There was so much more than a heart
      and soul, but a spirit involved
The most important, the spirit, for it
      was and is who i really am
So i'll let u have the other two because
       I need them not
And i bid farewell always to a man
       who wasnt truly a man.



© Hailey Raine