sometimes I feel like I rip apart everything at the seams
sometimes I feel like an ocean of regrets the tide comes in especially at the moments I've wept
sometimes I feel like everything I touch turns to ash
memories haunt me that echo your laugh
sometimes I look back and feel like I'm swallowed by the past
sometimes the pain feels like it follows me like a ghost
it calls my name
I feel empty filled with shame
sometimes I wish my life was different
that all the hours I spent I didn't resent
sometimes I feel like I'm this toxic thing
Simply because I was born I feel so deeply unseen
sometimes I tear myself down
when no one is around
there are days I've pondered how long I wish I could cry
sometimes the emptiness is all that remains and I don't think I'll ever be quite the same
sometimes though I feel like I simply have no name
that I'm some vapor in the wind
whispped away and then I bend
if you ever feel this way
sometimes it would do some good to reflect
and not to let these lies consume you unknowingly
they will all tear you down
they will cause you grief and shame
but most of all flesh eating pain
because inwardly they climb
until they steal your very pulse
they take away all joy and warmth
and cause a coldness to paralyze
all the warmth and heart inside

© ER