In the quiet arrival of this year,
It didn't start off so great,
I felt happy, really happy, at first,
But then I lost some pieces of myself.

It wasn't just once or twice, but more,
Life trying to complete a puzzle
without all the right pieces there.
I was never ready for the worst,
Nobody ever really is, you know.

Preparing for the bad times
felt like putting my head underwater,
scared I'd disappear and never come back.

Most days felt heavy, like an umbrella
after the rain, dragging me down.

Sometimes I wish things were different,
I wish I faced things in a...