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Watch You Go
I know that I am very strong I've no choice but to be.
I'm ten times more strong when you're close and standing next to me.
Surprised that you've gone so far away though it's what they always do.
I cannot stress enough how much I have and still need you.

Missing your soft touch and all the sweetness of your heart.
Feeling the depth of emptiness all the time that we're apart.
Holding tightly to the shadow of a ghost of a fading dream.
Praying that I mean more than your actions make it seem.

I know that you would never lie and that's what scares me more.
I know you want me in your life but I often wonder "what for?"
The lines of our relationship have no clear definition.
I feel we'll only remain this close with my heart and words imprisoned.

I can't express my heart because you feel it's like a leash.
I can't tell of my love you'd recoil as if my words were diseased.
I dare not try for even a hug for fear I won't let go.
When you leave I watch because you take my heart with you in tow.

I don't want to put this distance that I'm starting to create.
I don't want to miss your smile and laugh, I wish that you'd have stayed.
I have to accept that you are gone and watch my role diminish.
I have to get it through my heart that our futures already finished.

I've always been so hopeless when it comes to my romances.
I know that love takes work so I will give too many chances.
It's a hope that I've believed exists as long as I recall,
That two hearts can remain as one if feelings are involved.

I want to rid myself of all these thoughts of happy endings.
Im tired of looking for fairy tales when heartaches all that's trending.
I'll give up hope on my long search to find my heart a home.
There'll be no more storms of pain and regret if I face this world alone.

But I know myself and I know that I'll stay close by if you need me.
But when that need is at an end I know you'll only leave me.
Until that day I'll show my love for you, it still exists.
Anything you need, you need but ask and I'll say "As you wish".

© The Moonlight Bard