Staring at the floor asking myself how he fell for me. How he looked past my darkness, my craziness and my mood. Reality hits me because he's finally gone but 1½years yet he is still stuck in my bones. I'm in disbelief cause i can't crack how he loved the realness in me. How he never let me be. I can't believe that there are still people who'll fight for the ugliness in you and still choose you even when their time is due. They say that true love is letting go. But how can I when letting go meant cutting my life's rope?Risked going down an empty road. A road already closed but daily it's my heart that feels closed. Lonely, not because I'm an island but because nobody matched him. Sometimes it's not love that we need. Sometimes it's just the friendship and love in one person just to feel our heart bleed. If i could turn back the hands of time, we'd all be stuck in 2019.If asked what i wanna feel? I just wanna meet him when he's 17 young,stupid and inlove. When they said first love is not easy to forget, they lied. True love, even in ten years we can't hide.

Today, tomorrow forever and a day. I guess those words will go with me to the grave. Maybe i miss what you gave me. You were my first, just never imagined you'd forever quench my thirst.
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