Broken soul~
Tonight as everyone is fast asleep in dreamland.....I lay wide awake with my loud screaming, constant thoughts running over and over again like a broken record people like to say.. but I've always thought more like a broken soul............I'm so tired but not sleepy....I'm Soo exhausted but no rest can ease this kind of suffering.... Eternally I'm already dead...Just a body you see...My spirit passed long ago..My mind Soo lost in the dark turn arounds.........Happiness??" Honestly I don't even remember how we knew each other.....No hope or desire, no rescue to this disaster...Constantly no mercy upon me....You then after years of feeling like this, give in to your fate of this messed up reality.....and the connection with jumping into the echos of the tragic catastrophic..... Silence the Whispers and Screams... You feel like taking control back, standing up and tall to fight the demons and memories...But to win, sadly you must give in.......
...................I refuse.......So I sit here broken.... Locked in a place with no end.... No engery to actually go out and live, but not willing to yet die.... your stuck in a place that many have the pleasure of never understanding or knowing......How lucky they are...I've give anything to wash all this away ....
.....it lives inside and refuses to let you be ok.........

© SabrinaMarie