I saw it when no one else was looking or dared to see, I saw it even when you we're scared to show me!
I saw it through the tears you caused in my eyes, I still tried to hold it when you deceived and swore that it was me telling lies.
I saw it then when no one knew it existed, into the dark I went to find it and find it I did after I persisted and still it would hurt me and resisted!
I see it now, even still as I carry a love for you and my heart, but fear for you in my dying soul and tortured mind,
The memories come flooding back and they are painful and unkind.
And yet I have still lived despite the suffering I'm still lost in and I still consider and miss the heart that no one believed in.
The light I saw who others tried to extinguish,
I braved the darkness to bring that light to its full glow and still feel all the superfluously, drowning, little left over, but growing anguish
I tried to show you mirrors to see the good light deep inside you that I saw,
But like a fly drawn to the light, you tried to trap me there and I got caught on every animalistic talon & claw.

You wore brands of loyalty and respect,
It was something that you yearned for yet you had not given unto me I hope you learned in your time to reflect.
I've been waiting, scared and shaking, mad and aching, my ones beautiful mind overheating and burning, no longer slowly baking!

I see you, but I don't know if you even saw me standing there,
Stopped in my tracks, petrified while the rest of the world remained unaware.
I'm trying to engage to remind you what I once said ...
Regarding the unconditional love I am still gathering the pieces so true and many catapulted everywhere, that unconditional part you couldn't get over or believe in because no one ever gave it all to you, taken from those who deserved it and earned it, but did you?
Have you learned to love more than yourself? Or is the question now that you finally can love because you learned how to love you first, or love yourself last? What do you define as love?
What do you think loyalty, truth, and respect are really composed of?
These labels that you wear upon your skin without a care, inscribed in your body by others who were bold and took what they needed because they found that situation and didn't want to be left bare.
Just because you don't put your face in front of mine anymore, you don't feel mine with colors so amazing as I lay there with you choking me on the floor.
You may no longer be looking down at me as you take my last breath,
I hope you spent my air well as my diminished lung capacity so often toes the line of death.
The stress you've caused in our tiny piece of shared time,
Makes my heart feel like it will explode and it's explosion will leave me muted because my veins can't handle that hardcore pumping blood rush that is a bursting load!
I want to engage, I want to see that light, I want to see if it is still there or if you are waiting to pounce or...