I know how it feels to go astray, to lose your way and feel the pain
There’s a tragedy waiting for me, made by enemy again
Because I am lost , that’s not what I want
What I want is the pain to dissolve and vanish.
Starting to fall apart and heading to the end to perish
That day you’ll wear black suit and black tie to my funeral
It’s beautiful, standing at my grave stone, I can’t even imagine
Now I’m alive, devil had robbed all my comfort
I’d rather say I’m not living, I should depart
Then You can keep my broken heart

That’s not my choice
Can’t silence the accusing voice within me
Darkness swallowed me, now I’m suffering
Two Hostile forces inside me
I want to relief but it is not easy
Sometimes cheerful, sometimes sorrowful.
Dreadful darkness which Settled upon me
Like pall of night, will it be dispelled?

I’m not my own hero
I need solely a real joy, I trade the fake one long time ago
Now I’m enjoying the pain, and I won’t let go the ego
I wanna throw it back and grow slow ,
Travelling in the winter while the wind blows
Seeking my heaven and bliss in the snow
Trying to find happy fate beyond the hades
Wishing to face a blessed fate beyond the grave
the words sink into the depth of my heart
Makes my heart softened by passionate
Cries and bitter tears, then brings love into it
Then my soul will be satisfied for eternity

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