I am holding my breath
don't want to break infront of somebody I dont know that well
I am holding my breath
cant let anyone see the dark side
but I fail to be that person
whom they all loved
whom I am trying to be so hard
can't show my nervousness
my mental breakdowns
it's okay to feel sad
you'll just get used to it
used to the pain
then when you smile you'll feel it's not worth it
the shadows seem sweet
because the monsters that hide in the dark
hide within me
delusional I was
before
thought it would get better
but every time it did
it ended up getting worse
insecurities, negativity, overthinking,
my feelings they confuse me
so I am going to hold my breath
till I can
till I lose my breath
till I can't breathe again
© ~notyourfavperson