They say time heals all pain,
How come I am still suffering?
Am I the only one who's dealing,
The aftermath our of unfortunate encounter?

As the song line goes,
How can you be mad if you don't remember?
I don't know what to feel,
Am I the only one left with nothing but fear?

I have so many questions,
I am lost and confused,
I thought I am over it ,
But that nightmare reminded me of the same agony I felt.

The same agony that struck me,
When I learned the news that you two betrayed me,
That hateful act of sin kept replaying in my head,
Continuously killing me, but I remain undead.

Betrayal is a mortal sin for me,
Because I trust people easily,
I wear my heart on my sleeve,
How come they didn't notice?

I wanted to forget,
But my memory denies my request,
I wanted to move on,
But acceptance is a hard pill to digest.

Forgiveness is a sin again,
Because I allowed you two to walk away,
I didn't seek the apology that I deserve,
Now I am hung up with the thought of maybe's.

How long will I push myself forward,
Knowing that at any given moment,
You can snatch my happiness away,
I have lost my confidence again.

To her almost Laura,
I wish you all the best,
Please find another soul to love ,
Because I am firm in keeping my beloved.


© silvervierre