I once had a love who said
I'm addicted to the pain
As though I chose the life I've lived
As though I'd choose it all again
I've thought about that sentence
For years it's haunted me
Because I see the truth in it
And it doesn't set me free
No one ever stopped to think
Perhaps it's the reverse
Perhaps I'm pain's addiction
Now, tell me that's not worse
I guess it doesn't matter, now
When pain is all I know
After love said I'm addicted
And then love let me go
I shattered into nothing, then
While pain seared my soul inside
Perhaps I'm pain's addiction
With just one way off this ride
That's the thought that keeps me up
Each night while I die
From the pain that's ever-present
Eating me inside
I pour it out on paper
Like a faucet full of rain
About the love I used to have
That left me to the pain
As though the words will save me
From the only end there is
The day my heart stops beating
And there's no more love to miss.
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