Many emotions, hard to process,
Time promises healing, yet no progress.
Waiting for brighter days, walking for miles,
Looking back, I see I've lost my way but I have walked for a while.

I've tried or so I thought, but it seems I've only lied,
'Cause this misery, I don't want it to end, i have denied.
Lied to myself, been deceived, I've been scared,
Kind of like being miserable and impaired.

Walking in circles, trapped in square one's scheme,
The end is miles away, yet frozen I seem.
Seasons change, years pass, anxiety grows,
Approaching the end, all the colors slowly dim and lose glow.

Crashing down everything I once held dear,
The sinking ship of life, now the end's clear.
A small hole that I ignored, now the cost I must pay,
Engulfed in the abyss, where everything is gray.

Sinking deeper, drowning in my despair,
Afraid to close my eyes, afraid I won't repair.
The fear of staying awake, the fear of no end,
Lost within myself, trying to comprehend.

Time slips away, wasting moments of life.
Fault lies within me; I cause this strife.
As the year draws to a close, time drifts fast,
Here on this bridge, I pretend to move but the illusion won't last.

© shine