If only I could give....
the love i know i don't deserve but still recieve,
to those I know can do better
with a lil bit of love,
hope and forgivness.
If I could and and I did, well...you could have called it grace.
...I bet I got none..of that stuff.
No. Not today.

I can't give you a reason as to why,
I should be alive now and others shouldn't,
I am as guilty as they were,
as innocent as they had been when they had their last breath.....
I....see the news and I see...that,
It's neither rules nor regulations that had kept us alive so far,
it's not masks and medicines either,
we don't get much of that here .
I can't say it's because we are good and naive,
we're simply, honestly....not.
we were not born yesterday.
we are as evil as the gunners,
as innocent as those gunned down,
as angry as the shooters,
as scared as those shot down dead.

I close my eyes to pray,
to guy the in sky.
but....I don't know what to say to him...
How had we lived the days he had given us that we may be angry for the days we hadn't seen, we hadn't owned yet?
perhaps those gone already,
are spared of that which is to come...
or they have gone into...