The demon, again, knocking my silent mind
Asking me to go out and have fun
Sweet of him for preparing big bottle of vodka of blue island
With alcohol forty percent

Sitting and he pouring the first shot
Good for starter, boss, he exclaimed
I drink and wanting more
I'm here, ready for another shot, he said
Another shot repeatedly, again and again

My mind starts getting insane
Recalling every memoriy from the past
Hatred and grudges
Anger just instantly comes over
Striking hit by hit
More and more stories was played

I'm getting high
Emotions unable to suppress
Devilish thought makes me more depressed
Feeling regret to stay alive

I want my previous life back
I don't even know what it means
as happy life never even once say Hi to me
But I miss my old life, pathetic but I had wings to be be free

I hate for who I am now
Miserable life is mine
I hate to see my more miserable life
Life with full of shit
No freedom and happiness

Oops, a notification pops up on my screen
She, the bitch, gave like on my feed
Accidentally I tap her account
And there I see her posts
This devilish thought makes me keep scrolling
Shit! I found she wrote my honey name's again

I'm tired of feeling jealous
I'm tired of feeling insecure
I'm tired of feeling this shit

I'm tired....
© luki