#AloneInCrowd
I was a shy teenager whose knees buckled
under the pressure of other around me
I was a little bit nervous of my image captured by others eyes, I was definitely not going to speak to a stranger

My painful space is here standing alone
when other glace my way, are they judging
me for my lack of anything on my person
My hopeless fear of getting ridiculed...

My family is my cats at home not these
strangers here at this party chose to stare
My family asked me to visit them, why
did they leave me standing here alone

Do I walk? Do I move?
Where do I go where there is a friend
How do I mingle? How do I ask?
Where do I hide they are watching me...

My father says I will get over this stage
I think he is just saying this to placate
me in my world I have not grown
I think I will love these people here...

My parents love dinner parties.
They think I should join in the 'ffun'
I don't think this if it, I think its
rather annoying really, I think not...

Next year I wont age, Next year I'll cry
pretending to be sick and hide away
before my dearest parents invited
all these people again...




© Charline Good