She is mad at him.
Although she doesn't want to be, but she can't help it.
Oh fate! how can you be so cruel. How can you show me happiness only to snatch it away without pity.
She wishes it's all a dream, a horrible nightmare that she will eventually wake up from.
But alas, it's REAL.
She is like Moses in the Bible, who was shown the promise Land, but he could not step into it.
How can she get him off her mind she ponders.
Day and night, same thought over and over again.
How can she make this feeling go away. This feeling that cuts through her heart like a hot sharp knife.
Everything reminds her of him. She hears his laughter in the wind, she feels his touch from the sheets, she sees his smile in every picture.
She morns her loss, wishing it's all a joke.
Oh...