I may sound different to you all
But I took a huge fall
I was excelling in sports
Doing great at my talent
I would play for free thats how much it's a part of me
I was enjoying my life assuming a 13 year old knows what that entails
I was happy and loved the game
Taking it away from me would push me to the insane
One day I was happy and enjoyed life
The same day I was fighting for that same life
I remember crashing into the trees
I remember watching my best friends dad die in front of me
I remember my best friend unconscious right in front of me
I literally was alone
I was awake in the back of a mangled car
I had extensive injuries but still alive barely I found out later
Amazingly my older brother showed up
He said how are you doing
I said alive but im having trouble breathing
Turns out my leg was broken, wrist too
My lungs were punctured too
I said to my brother and the medics that I can't breathe. please help
At that point I passed out for a bit
but I gave them enough info to help save me
The last thing I remember was them shoving a tube down my throat
I didn't wake up for a week
As I was comatose
So when I finally awoke I didn't know what or where I was
I did realize that I was possibly about to die.
I couldn't recognize anything
I was in a strange place with strange people watching over me
This is what I deduced from the situation at 13
I had died and was in limbo before going hopefully to heaven
Since I was only thirteen I thought heaven was a solid shot
Yes I was in catholic school so I may be stupid but not a fool.
I figured a boy barely a teen couldn't jump to murder
So I laughed and said I must be on my way to heaven
These were my subconscious thoughts
But then a nurse came and I awoke again
She said it's been a while so we are gonna take out your tube
I said in my head what tube, She just proceeded to remove my breathing tube
Spoiler alert for future tube holders
when a breathing tube is taken out
Guess what .you can't talk you can't make a sound
Yes you think you are gonna die.
Does anyone get this . No. no they don't
Trust me you are gasping for air
No it's not fair
The killer is that the nurses don't realize you think it's over
They assume it's just procedure and I will be fine.
WRONG.!
It's like getting the wind knocked out of you times ten.
I'm GASPING GASPING. the nurse told me to relax.
Relax she said. im 13 .I can't breathe im alone cause visiting was very limited.
So eventually I stopped hyperventilating because of a gorgeous nurse who I eventually married. lol
kidding she pursued me but I said no.
Anyway fantasy aside.
2 months and numerous surgeries later I went home.
Yes in a freaking body cast. it was bad
Anyway so I moved on and played very competitive sports for a dozen more years.
but that was it the body trauma took over
I had about 20 surgeries since.
Oh well I survived
I'm still getting surgeries to this day
However, I am a survivor
How could I not be
I am the only survivor left.
my friend died in 9/11
we didnt find him
I was getting another surgery related to the accident 25 years later
To this day I can no longer function as a human every September 11th since
I hide in my room
missing my friends
Well my message is
don't ever stop loving friends and family.
Please I beg you cause nothing is more important
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