I saw you in a dream,
many times it would seem.
You were no longer here.
I felt anger, I felt fear.
You were wearing a hospital gown.
Just like the one that you wore,
On that day you swallowed all your pills down.
so many years before.
There were iv tubes covering your arms.
They were leaking blood out like a siv.
You came to pick me up in your mustang.
just like you did when you were alive.
We got in the car, but something was strange.
Your face was blue and oxygen deprived.
You still had that hole in your neck.
You tried to speak, but no words would come out.
On your face, I could see your regret.
I didn't understand what this was all about.
I would have been scared out of my mind,
if you were still here on earth.
Since you went and left me behind.
I had to take it for what it was worth.
At least I got to see you again,
every night for years in my dreams.
I want you to know, I stayed with you till the very end.
I was always on your team.
To this very day, I still don't understand,
why it had...